22 days and counting! That seems hard to believe. I can't believe in just a few weeks we will be on a plane and hopefully bringing her home. The closer it gets the more nervous i get. I think i get less sleep every night. I go to sleep fine but then it seems around 1a.m. I'm wide awake staring at the ceiling. Last night i just decided to get up. I hate tossing and turning.
We have been busy trying to get things ready. I feel like we are in the home stretch of a pregnancy where you know it could happen any day and you are just waiting. You know when your due date is but you still don't know what to expect. It is just a lot of nerves and excitement and just very emotional. I know Martin is feeling the same way. He told me he doesn't know if he is nervous or just excited but he keeps dreaming about us being on the airplane.
We have been so blessed with good friends who are just as vested in this as we are if that is possible. We met with our best friends this last week and they gave us an unexpected surprise. We were at dinner with them when we were handed a gift. Inside there was a check. They said they wanted to help us with our trip. I immediately started getting teary eyed and Martin even got choked up. This has been such an emotional roller coaster and has definitely been a leap of faith. We had no idea what to expect when we started this journey but we just jumped in having faith that we would know what to do and have the resources to do it. God has definitely provided for us at exactly the right time. I really feel he has blessed us through out this process and will continue to see us through this. There have been so many people who have sent good wishes or have taken the time to call and ask how things are going. We know people have been praying for us and it really means so much to us that people care about our family. We are beyond blessed to be surrounded by such good people in our lives.
We called and talked to Michell and her mom a couple of nights ago. All is well with them. She is suppose to call this Friday which is the 1st to try to get the medical appointment set up. I hope we finally get that taken care of. Other than that I am working on completing my classes before we leave. I got an email yesterday about registering for the next quarter and I don't even want to think about that yet. One of my teachers told me that I may need to cut back on my classes. She said it is important for you to finish but your kids are only babies once. I know this is true but it is so important for me to finish......and before my oldest graduates from college! That is my goal, to finish before her. Seriously, I should graduate in the spring or summer of next year 2014. I really am focused on completing then. I feel like I've been doing this forever and I just want to be finished! Every time I want to give up I can hear my big sister in my ear pushing me on. I know she would really be proud of me.......enough of that, I can't even think about that or the tears will really being flowing. I miss her so much. Especially,over the last 7 months since we started this process. She was my biggest supporter and the person i went to for advice so i know we would have had a lot to talk about lately.
So my mission the last couple of days has been to find a Hispanic baby doll.....my goodness. I didn't know this was going to be such a challenge. I have searched everywhere and googled and everything else i know to do. Even with American girl you can not get a medium skin girl with black hair and brown eyes even though you are suppose to be able to create one "just like you". Anyway, finally found a doll last night that will have to work. I ordered it and it should be here before we leave so we can take it with us.
We pretty much have her room together. Well, as much as we are going to. Martin wants to wait to buy bedding until she gets here so she can pick out what she wants but I did buy some pink sheets for her bed. We still have some touch up paint that we need to finish and we want to put a ceiling fan in her room.
We are getting the big kids the weekend before we leave and I'm looking forward to that. I really miss them. I haven't seen Madeline since Christmas so it will be nice for us to all be together again.
I will keep everyone updated as we go along. Sorry this one was a lot of rambling....maybe due to lack of sleep or could be the 3 cups of coffee I've had this morning :)
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